Glimpses of God

There are days when I get so incredibly frustrated with Little Miss. It seems to be happening more and more since she turned three. But, today, as I was working through my frustrations, I caught a glimpse of what God must be seeing in me.

It was one of the million times that Little Miss wasn't obeying. I threatened to take her videos back to the video store, which usually does the trick. She got very concerned over the thought of losing her videos and quickly said, "I wanna obey, Momma!" And, of course, I was so frustrated that I came back with, "Well, if you want to obey, just do it! Obey!" And, almost instantly after the words were out of my mouth, this thought hit (which had to completely be the Holy Spirit)...God must be saying that to me constantly! I have been in a spiritual trough lately, and so often I think, I want to be closer to God. Or, I think I should do this or that, which I'm sure is the Spirit's prodding. But, like Little Miss, I'm too busy doing what I want to do or too stubborn to bend to the will of another that I continue in what I've already been doing. And, when I'm pushed more, I cry and say, I want to obey! Or, I want to be closer! So, now I'm thinking that God has been crying back (maybe more in love than in frustration), "If you want to, then, by all means, do it!" What a fool I am! Apparently, I am currently comparable to a preschooler spiritually.

You know, when that thought hit me, I didn't have the time to really think it through. It really wasn't until I got into the car to do some grocery shopping that it struck a deeper chord. I thought then that I needed to blog about it when I got home, just to flesh it out a little bit. It's amazing how clear things become when you see them in black and white. There was another thing that struck me when I was thinking about it in the car, but it must not have been quite as deep at the time, because I couldn't remember it ten minutes later. Maybe, once I get this one all mulled through, that one will come back to the forefront of my mind, and I'll be able to gain even more insights from my sweet Little Miss.